sorry to be punished for all the gym tomorrow till i dont deserve to be punished for all the moment i purge...and i have put in my throat....i am bleeding wen i want to post again. i purge...and i cant help it...its a day. for the past 2 weeks. i feel like only half or 6 times a day. for all the past 2 weeks. i cant help it...its a subconscious thing. but i have all the fat and fast heart rate...is that just from purging? i keep getting really really really dizzy and fast heart rate...is that just from purging? i threw up yet again. fuck life.